Thursday, May 24, 2012

on my "baby" starting school ...

sigh....

.... it's almost that time guys. my biggie is almost ready for school! due to his late birthday & missing the sept 1 cut off he will not be going to kindergarten this year. instead he will be doing a program called VPK.

what is VPK?! "Voluntary Prekindergarten or VPK gives children a jump start by preparing them for school and enhancing their pre-reading, pre-math, language and social skills. By developing the skills children need to become strong readers and students at an early age, children are more likely to be successful in school. 
VPK classrooms offer high-quality programs that include high literacy standards, developmentally appropriate curricula, manageable class sizes, and qualified teachers."

It's not set by district or anything like that. you explore different VPK centers & find the one that is right for you. you can also chose to do school year or summer program & all programs are different depending which location you chose. you may find one that is monday -friday for just a few hours a day or you might find one that is only 2 or 3 days a week but for the whole day. which route we're going to take?! not sure yet, we haven't got that far!

i have am such a big ball of emotion about it all. i am so excited for him to go learn so much everyday, he is like a sponge & he loves to learn, i know he is just going to love school. i am also excited for him to have the opportunity to socialize with the other kids & make friends. 

at the same time i am so sad at the thought of being away from him. he was my first born & i have spent all day everyday with him forever, it will be so weird not having him here. like an empty space .... a void. 

if i had my way i would home school the kids [to set the record straight, i have no problems with going to school, i went to public school & had no problems, nor am i a crazy lady with a million reasons for why home schooling is better. i have my thoughts on the pros & cons for both [[email me if you're interested]] ] but my friends my husband 100% will not have it & because i am not crazy strong willed about it's not worth the fight, because public school isn't bad. did any of that make sense?!

the thought of him being big enough to head to school & leave me everyday brings me to tears it also brings me a smile. let's be realistic, doesn't the thought of a "break" sound nice?! just a couple hours, a few times a week. colton is my problem child & i don't always mean that in a bad way, but he is the one who keeps me on my toes, who is pushing the limits, the one who requires more attention ... which leads me to part b of the smile. 

alone time with braedon. before braedon was born, it was colton & i all day everyday. just the two of us. braedon has never been able to experience such thing. i mean a few times dad & colton have ran to the store, or my parents have watched colton & we've spent a day with brae alone, but braedon & i never get any quality alone time together & i am so excited for it & even more so ... i think he will blown away by all the one on one time. i'm sure he will miss his brother, but lets face it, he is the little brother, he gets bullied around sometimes, i think he will LOVE having mommy to himself, having the house to himself, having the toys to himself ...

so yes, i am literally a mixed ball of emotion! happy, sad, nervous for him, excited for him, excited for braedon, happy for braedon. at the end of the day i just can't believe how life that flashes right before your eyes. it seems like yesterday i was on the couch feeding him a bottle, then he was learning to talk & walk & now before i know it, he is going to be putting him shoes on, his backpack on & heading off to school! 


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